Après la pluie...

Finally, I've reached this moment so closely-
I could recall all the happiness and sadness i've suffered without any tears.

I am not strong even I've tried very hard to be, or... to pretend to be.

I've learned an important and valuable lesson for the times past
and I think I should appreciate those who have been my best partners for such a long time!
How ironic and how foolish that I am always soooo self-centred, oh yes that what I gained and I should beared.
And the only thing I could do is to wipe out my tears and stay myself away, 
or I might win more and more... I don't know, comments perhaps.

I still keep lots of sweet memories in my mind with those who definitely have different standpoints from mine.
Despite all the grievances, whatever true or false, I can't help myself but to hear some news about them,
however what I've done hurt me much more and deeply.

Indeed, everyone has his/her own viewpoints and of course he/she might not agree others and defend himself/herself.
Nevertheless, it might have huge differences when such situation happened among what people called " best friends". 
I have no ideas but there is not necessary to argue who is right and who is wrong, right?

Just let the past past.
And I will finally grow up and cover all the heartbreak.
One I admire a lot told me I would never have the ability to bear all and besides, I should not ask myself to bear all.
Now I realize this eternal Truth eventually, I think I have to laugh, laugh at myself, right?

Oh, forget it.

There was an exactly wonderful dictum I've seen casually and I think it's the best choice to be the windup-

Never try to explain yourself coz the person who likes you doesn't need it, and the person who dislikes you won't believe it.

So which position you are on right now, my friend?

Ah ha, the downtrodden dignity! The inestimable dignity!  Cheers.